11/14/09 10:38 pm
So, uh. I just watched Twilight. Don't judge me. It was on, it was free, and I was really bored. I just wanted to see what all the fuss was about. The worst part? It was actually pretty good, apart from how seriously disturbing it was. I think that as long as I pretend to myself that Smeyer meant their relationship to be as fucked up as it actually is, I could get into it; I like disfunctional relationships. See my OTP.
I own't read the books, though, just watch the movies. I've read extracts, and the purple prose and repetition are just way too much.
What I really want now, though, is fic about how Bella became the kind of person who thinks that this kind of relationship is healthy. Yeah, she's a teenager - very much so - and she's melodramatic and convinced that she knows everything, and she thinks vampires are romantic. Lots of women think vampires are romantic. Hell, I have a vampire kink, possibly related to my disfunctional relationships kink. This, though? This crosses a line. This crosses many lines. Her obsession with him is as deep as his obsession with her, and I get why Edward's fucked in the head - being seventeen for a hundred years will do that to you - but Bella?
I'd write it if I thought I could pull it off, but I know I can't. There's got to be something like that out there, though, right? It's a huge fandom, there has to be at least one person who likes it for the same reasons as me.